My chubby water filled monkey cheeks.

I had a tooth ache the last couple days. Actually more like a MOUTH ache.  Gums, teeth, mouth, the whole sha bang.

 And, I was miserable.  I spent 60 bucks at the local health food store buying thieves mouthwash, clove oil, natural toothpaste.  After I gave up on the  all natural method, I was sucking on Tylenol like they were candy, and washing them down liquid Benadryl on the gums.  I also, did the whole sip water, leave it in your mouth (to make your cheeks look like a monkey) until you gotta swallow to breathe.  (with this I took about 60 trips to the bathroom) Being a healing touch student, I did a little healing touch on my mouth, I tried yoga moves, hand stands, focal point concentration, cleansing breaths, and when all those failed....

I had a feet kickin, mouth crying,  good ol 33 year old temper tantrum.

And, when it was all said and done, I layed in bed, fetal position, lookin like a chubby monkey, with the water filling my cheeks, using the TV with a little Doctor Phil as my focal point. I lay there half watching the powerful balding shrink, and thinking- what was my mouth trying to tell me?

You see, when the mouth ache started, I called upon a dear soul friend for some assistance. (You know the whole phone a friend, who wants to be  a millonare, method?!) Well I picked, the  one who is a dental hygienist along with a intuitive kinesthesiologist. And, I asked her all the questions- what could be wrong with my mouth?  After she asked if I had been grinding my teeth, or if I have been outside with a big temperature change.  After I decided neither of these pertained, I asked, what does it mean, metaphorically when your mouth feels like its filled with acute arthritis?  She answered, whats irritating you, that's close to you, and you don't want to talk about it?

BINGO.

As the show-went to a commercial, it hit me.

How can  I let go, of things that irritate me, when all I want to do is love?  I don't want to fight, darn it- I like peace. And, I cant even talk- my mouth needs to have water in it at all times, otherwise I risk another temper tantrum.

So, I started writing, letters.  Letters, to ones that I felt called to. And, the words flowed.  I wrote, and let go, and then burnt the letter. Then I would write another one, and follow the steps. And another. Honestly, I cant even remember what the letters said, I just know that I felt like I was taking care of much needed (but not known about) business.  And, at the end of each note, always wishing me and themselves well, by sending love, and don't forget- peace.

When it was all said and done, I layed there on my big comfy bed and felt, lighter.  And, I relaxed enough to finally drift of  to sleep.  When I awoke an  hour later, and jumped quickly into the bathroom to urinate (chubby monkey water cheeks remember) I realized, my mouth barely hurt. A couple hours later, I finally could say my mouth pain was pretty much gone!

I know, this sounds crazy.  I am a registered nurse, spending years reading Anatomy books.

But, let me explain.

I'm a firm believer that your beautiful God given body, is your messenger. Listen, to it.  Are you getting a cold?  U need to slow down and rest. Your back hurts? Are you feeling supported?  These are questions I ask myself everytime, I have an ailment.

Don't get me wrong, tomorrow I am going to the much needed dentist.  These pearly whites are in need of a good ol cleaning.  And, I do believe that there is a time and place for all the medical community.  But, for me- I feel, its important to look at what your body is telling you to heal.

And, it was another reminder to me, that your body is for you, not against you.

So tonight, tonight, I sit and write this, and thank my body. For the sign.  For the healing. For showing me, another way to heal my God given physical structure.

Till next time friends, love, honor, and listen to your body! And, try to stay away from those darn temper tantrums.

Xxoo, Michelle

The girl who is learning to run with dresses on